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Well, here I sit typing away my pain....ha ha.  Not really pain, just a feeling of loss for my sweet, sweet TN mountains.  I think whenever I got bored or needed a feeling of belonging, I'd ride around the mountains and look at God's wonderful creations and not feel so bored or out of place.  I came from the NC coast and I never felt in all of my40 + years that I would love a place more, but once inTN, I knew it was my home.  There was never a day a day that I didn't feel as if I wanted to be anywhere else but there.  Even when the "redneck" neighbors were hootin and hollerin it up at 4 am, I only wanted to be right there.  I would go outside and see the morning mist surrounding my horses as they nickered quietly from a long night of grazing and I would feel as if there were only one place in all of the world to be and that was right there in my skin, standing in TN.

 Ohio is the last place on earth that I swore I would go, and yet the excitement in my husbands voice when he had an offer to buy this store up here, well, let's just say, I knew I would follow.  I have followed him and yet still will, until the end of time, because we are one.  One in Spirit, Love, Thought and Deed.  My needs are not so important when I know he is pleased. Yep, sounds a bit biblical, doesn't it? Well, so be it.  We are married forever and ever and have always been since the first night we touched.  I am not ashamed, I am proud.

So here I sit, typing out my thoughts, so that anyone and everyone could read and these words still seem to be only mine.  I guess I just need to say these things to someone, even if I don't know who, so that I will at least have been able to express my longing for home, my mountains, my horses, my life, my short dream of being there forever, with everything I have ever dreamed of.  Only to this cyber space of a thing, so that I won't hurt my husband, so that he can live out his dream and I can watch him do so with love and pride in my heart.